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Pan(dem)ic
04:32
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It's coming to an end
It's coming to an end
It's coming to an end, my dear
It's coming to an end
It's coming to an end
It's coming to an end, my dear
Hold me near
It's coming to an end
It's coming to an end
It's coming to an end, my dear
There's nowhere left to run
There's nowhere left to run
There's nowhere left to run, my dear
There's nowhere left to run
There's nowhere left to run
There's nowhere left to run, my dear
Away from here
There's nowhere left to run
There's nowhere left to run
There's nowhere left to run, my dear
It's knocking on our door
It's knocking on our door
It's knocking on our door, my dear
It's knocking on our door
It's knocking on our door
It's knocking on our door, my dear
Have no fear
It's knocking on our door
It's knocking on our door
It's knocking on our door, my dear
Just watch and wait
And waste away
It's knocking on our door
It's knocking on our door
It's knocking on our door, my dear
There's nowhere left to run
There's nowhere left to run
There's nowhere left to run, my dear
Have no fear
It's coming to an end
It seems this is the end
I guess this is our end, my dear
Just watch and wait
And waste away
Just watch and wait
And waste away
It's coming to an end
It's coming to an end
It's coming to an end, my dear
It's coming to an end
It seems this is the end
The world is at its end, my dear
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2. |
Stuck Inside
04:05
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It's the same old thing
Retread the same paces
I'm circling
Hours passing me by
Every endless day
Every restless night
As I'm stuck inside
Stuck inside
Stuck inside my head again
Stuck inside
Stuck inside
Stuck inside my head again
It's the same old thing
Every day-in, day-out
Hanging on by a string
These thoughts are so familiar
But I'm estranged
Just hoping and praying that something will change
But I'm stuck inside
Stuck inside
Stuck inside my head again
Stuck inside
Stuck inside
Stuck inside my head again
It's the same
It's the same
It's the same old thing
Day-in, day-out
Hanging on by a string
Caught in the same spaces
I'm spiraling
As I'm stuck inside
Stuck inside
Stuck inside my head again
Stuck inside
Stuck inside
Stuck inside my head again\
It's the same
It's the same
It's the same old thing
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3. |
Self-Destruct
03:37
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Succumb to numbness
And rest in apathy, my friend
Or live forever with the pain
And curse the thoughtless
Who feast on famine, lie in wait
And drive the rest of us insane
Endure the heartless
But when compassion starts to strain
You'll cry out from your tired brain:
"I hate what you stand for
And I hate all the shit that you do
And I'd love to fuck it up
But I can't get to you
But I can get to me"
Yeah, I could make my demands
And maybe it's worth a try
No guarantees
Said you're afraid of rejection
Well, I'm afraid of that too
But the difference between you and me is
I don't know what I might do
If it gets too dark at night
'Cause I've always got myself to fight
'Cause when it's all too much
I could just self-destruct
'Cause the whole world is fucked
And we're plumb out of luck
You know the time has come
For us to rise on up
But if it's not enough
Maybe I'll self-destruct
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4. |
From Below
03:48
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It's on and on and on again
The same old story never ends
And we're just changing out the cast
The tales we heard when we were young
That the heroes always won
Are all just relics of the past
True heroes come in shades of gray
And no one really knows the way
But we'll still fight amongst ourselves
The road we know is always fraught
The path less traveled's never not
And we're still caught in static hell
You think they all should hurt like you
'Cause you know exactly what to do
But they can't seem to fall in line
No you can't change the way they're wired
And every one of us is tired
So you'll take the best and leave the rest behind
And I can't believe
That you would fall down on me
When you need someone else to lay further down
And I didn't know
That you would crawl from below
And leave the rest of us still buried underground
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5. |
Remember Me
05:30
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I don't know how I feel about this
I don't know how I feel about you
All I know is I don't like seeing you this way
But it seems like I might have to
It's hard not to notice
Your repetitive refrain
I'd hoped we'd have much longer
Until I'd fade
Will you remember me?
Or will you remember her?
How much longer 'til she returns?
Will remember now or the days gone by?
And how much longer 'til the present dies?
I don't know how to feel about this
I don't know how to feel about anything else
All I know is I'm not sure that I can trust you to help me
If I don't even know if you can trust yourself
I didn't want to hurt
And I don't want to push you away
But tell me how much longer
Will you remain this way
Will you remember me?
Or will you remember her?
Do you recall still all that's occurred?
Do you remember when?
Do you remember why?
And how much longer 'til the thought passes you by?
Remember me
How much longer now
Remember me
For how much longer now
Remember me
'Cause I want to be
Part of your memory
Remember me
'Cause I want to be
Part of your memory
Do you remember now or those bygone days?
And how much longer 'til it all fades?
Remember me, don't remember her
How much longer 'til I'm just a blur?
I don't know how to feel about this
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6. |
For Peggy Sue
04:00
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The space between your frenzied feet, your socks and matching collar
So still
The scar Eliza left upon your nose, once always twitching
So still
What happened to the joyful leaps that greeted me this morn?
Why has the sound of footsteps died away?
You never were the one before to keep me up at night
Did I not love you hard enough to stay?
What's left of three kiss your facsimile, but it's pale imitation
So still
And Phoebe lays just like you did...
...I hold my breath to watch her breathing
So still
I never thought you'd be the one to set off on your own
Now I'm so afraid they'll follow after you
And without a word of warning I'll have lost my little home
I'll let them know tonight in case they do
I'll kiss them on the head now before I go to bed
And say "Goodnight, my loves, I'll see you again"
Now Phoebe's digging in the corner and Eliza won't stop drinking
And my heart stops whenever they sleep
The space between your frigid feet
Your eyes that stare beyond us
So still
The memories that lie beneath a makeshift sorrel garden
So still
And not a day goes by I don't feel the space you left behind
And I regret every single mistake I made
And what I wouldn't give for the chance to say good-bye
Maybe you heard before you slipped away?
I kissed you on the head before I laid you to rest
And said "Goodnight, my love, I'll see you again"
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7. |
Pancakes Tomorrow
04:28
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There's no point in sticking around here any longer
It hurts to breathe
Every breath adds seconds to the agony
Should I go or should I stay?
Everyone tells me to wait
But you won't give me something to wait for
There's more reasons I should leave
Every day looks bleak to me
'Cause no one can give me what I need
I need a reason
I need a reason just to stay
But if you go you'll never taste chocolate chip pancakes
Or watch the sun set from Holt Hill again
But you could do it all tomorrow
If you just wake up one more time
So maybe stay another day
If only for the pancakes
The future's lost when just getting up takes all your effort
At what cost?
Hope is meant for those who have a beacon
"It gets better you will see"
What are these words worth to me
If I have to wait six years to get there?
You're asking me to stick it out, but suffering is here and now
And the promise of an end won't get me through
I need a reason
So I'll find a reason just to stay
'Cause if I go I'll never taste chocolate chip pancakes
Or watch the sun set from Holt Hill again
And I can do it all tomorrow
If I just wake up one more time
So I guess I'll stay another day
If only for the pancakes
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8. |
Butterfly
05:09
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Butterfly, flap your wings
Take me away from here
You can do anything you fear
The ripples that you create can change our circumstance
'Cause even half of one percent is still a fighting chance
If all we see is just probability
So butterfly, flap your wings
Bring that Chicago rain
'Cause if we never know anything for sure
I can take this on faith
And though it seems just a broken dream
I'll keep on trying
Just keep on trying
To make it through
Butterfly, flap your wings
Remake these skies anew
A little rain is what we need
To wash out these broken hues
Even though this pain is all we know
We'll keep on trying
Just keep on trying
We'll keep on trying
Just keep on trying
To make it through
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Ray der Bankert Oakland, California
Singer-songwriter based in Oakland, CA. Writing sad songs in major and weird, self-indulgent experimental stuff on occasion. Slowly but surely improving my production value.
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