It’s Ray der Bankert Live from the extant world Here I am in an alternate dimension Body left behind to slip between the space of me Where lightyears live between overlapping spaces Speaking through unfamiliar faces Don’t pinch me, you may find that I’m not real Blow my eardrums out at least the ring will stay with me and Sink through skin drifting further from sensation Drowning in overstimulation No, we haven’t met before; you’ve seen me seven times a day I’m too far down inside myself my mind I can’t escape I got the whole world (living underwater) Sinking lower (minds were made for slaughter) Why don’t you Dissociate with me It’s Ray der Bankert Live from the extant world Here am I where are you where am I reaching Senses slip away within my grasp are held escape Still move like new through the waves of altered feeling Crashing through numbness wreckage reeling And I can’t tell who’s speaking; the reception isn’t great I’m too far down beside myself inside I can’t escape And we’ll go down (we can tread together) I don’t know how (there’s never better weather) Come on babe Dissociate with me I’m sorry I’m not here right now I’m away from my body at the moment please leave a message after the beep *beep*

Don’t be a fool Come kiss the rings Let me tell you about the pursuit of knowledge Pure reason’s final bastion It’s the activity of highest nobility This is where the magic happens Come meet the minister, ambassador and the consul The head of state, the mother fucking queen (Ah ah ah) And it’s the pursuit of knowledge whispering in their ears Oh how it pays to be seen No there’s no space for morality we’re talking bout legality It’s policy All the rules are unwritten and you're losing the game Let me tell you again about the pursuit of knowledge How I’ve read everything there is (only in translation) All of the best established scholars None of the ones with biases (from another nation) No there’s no space for morality You’re clouding objectivity It’s policy All the rules are unwritten and you’re losing the game Don’t be a fool Just stay in school Don’t be a child Just suck it up Come kiss the rings No there’s no space for reality When talking ‘bout morality It’s policy All the rules are unwritten and you’re losing the game Tell me why would you shun the pursuit of knowledge? Its an objective moral good What is it that I can’t make you understand? And why won’t you act the way you should? So you best control your intonation There’s no space for rage in education No there’s no place for hostility Show deference when you speak to me It’s policy All the rules are unwritten and you’re losing the game Don’t lose your cool You’ll stay in school Stop fighting me Choke on my cock but don’t forget to kiss the ring

So it’s this again You can take up my home You can break in my bones And then you wait And expect a thank you But I’m never gonna sign my soul away No I’m never gonna be like you No I won’t let this be Am I the only one who sees beyond my nose? Am I supposed to turn a blind eye too? What you cant see can hurt me ‘Cause every time they get a leg up the heel comes down On everyone that they can justify It’s always gonna be “tough luck, get fucked, I’m moving up ‘cause you’ve got yours and baby I’ll get mine” Is this just a phase? Or is this who I’m gonna be? Depressed delusion? Or reality? Either way I think I hate humanity So it’s this again You can coopt my words So they work on your terms And then you wait For me to grovel But I don’t ever wanna be the next to fall No I don’t ever wanna be like him With corrupted hope-turned-hate Am I the only one who sees beyond my nose? If I believe that then I’m just like them I don’t want this bitter faith But every time they get a leg up the heel comes down On everyone that can be pacified It’s always gonna be “tough luck, get fucked, I’m moving up” If this is man then what the fuck am I? Is this just a phase? Or is this who I’m gonna be? Misanthropic recession? Or just apathy? Either way I think I hate humanity Get out of my head Ignorance is seductive I can do what I want without consequence And no one can blame me ‘Cause what’s yours is mine Cynical confirmation Pessimism’s the home of the discontent My faith is fading And it’s just in time Is this just a phase? Or is this who I’m gonna be? Lowered expectations? Or full despondency? Either way I think I hate humanity

Do you even remember just how it went Just another December but now I’m spent But if I walk away we’re through There’s just no getting away from you Seems the truth is unwelcome; you sleep with your lies Well you can live the delusion you want to I won’t waste my time on you And when I walk away you’ll know There’s just no getting away anymore This is how we’ll be if I can’t make you see No you won’t recognize the shit you’re leaving me with So I’ll just simmer Do you even remember all that you said Not the lies you bought into, but what it all meant Just another December but now I’m spent This is how we’ll be if I can’t make you see No you won’t recognize the shit you’re leaving me with So I’ll just simmer This is how we’ll be if I can’t make you see No you won’t recognize the shit you’re leaving me with So I’ll just simmer

I am a bit of a mess, I can’t help but confess All the things that are driving me wild I am a little insane these days ‘Cause I am a clinical case I can’t seem to replace Cocktail chemicals lose in my mind I am resistant and losing face I’m scared sleepless thoughts at 3 am (I am a bit of a mess yeah, I am a bit of a mess) If I’m dreaming waking don’t know when (I am a bit of a mess yeah, I am a bit of a mess) Wicker basket case I can’t escape this body’s burning down I don’t want to know what lies below my eyes now So give me that sweet electricity Yeah give me that sweet electricity C’mon and shock me baby Yeah give me that sweet electricity Shock me baby, sh-sh-shock me, baby Just give me that I am a bit of a mess, I can’t help but confess That I’m already losing my mind Yes I am a little insane these days ‘Cause I can help but complain under duress of pain On a baseline that’s scraping me by I am at whims of my dead grey space I’m scared sleepless waking 5 am (I am a bit of a mess yeah, I am a bit of a mess) Spiral staircase thoughts that know no end (I am a bit of a mess yeah, I am a bit of a mess) Wicker basket case I can’t escape this body’s burning down Do you want to know what lies below let’s find out So give me that sweet electricity Yeah give me that sweet electricity C’mon and shock me baby Yeah give me that sweet electricity Shock me baby, sh-sh-shock me, baby Just give me that Come shock me

I’m sorry my motives confuse you And you can’t tell when I’m lying ‘Cause my conscience eludes you And you never thought of dying ‘Cause I see through your false pain I’m sorry you don’t feel the same And I’ll never be your kind of man I’m sorry you don’t understand it Why I chafe against the molding Why I keep things to myself And your approval feels revolting Try as I might I’ll never be good enough for you No I’ll never fit your standards So why do you think I should? No you don’t own my choice But I won’t give you my silence ‘Cause I need the noise No I won’t straighten up for you Do you wish I wasn’t me? I don’t wish that I were you Break my soul in two But I’ll never be sorry I’m sorry you shrink from my abrasion ‘Cause my rough edges are honest And I’m whole inside my fractures No, I don’t need to be polished Believe what you want there’s nothing you can offer me No your standards will never fit on me Why did you think they would? 'Cause you don’t own my choice But I won’t give you my silence 'Cause you need the noise No I won’t straighten up for you Do you wish I wasn’t me? I don’t wish that I were you Break my soul in two But I’ll never be sorry No you don’t own my choice But I won’t gift you my silence 'Cause you need to hear the noise No I won’t straighten up for you Do you wish I wasn’t me? I don’t wish that I were you Break my soul in two Can I just be free to be? Can I hope for something new? Break my soul in two But I’ll never be sorry

I’m garbage, I’m worthless, I’m your worst fears realized I’m defunct, disgust, delusion, I’m a stain before your eyes Yeah I’m fucked up and broken and torn Beaten and battered and worn And I can’t complain I am incomplete, degenerate, damaged goods, a stain on humanity Unsettling ambiguity unworthy of a name And I am unashamed So go on and chew me out I taste it all the damn time There’s blood in my mouth I’m beating out from the inside I am the eyes above, the mouth below, the hands you cannot see I am a monster Love me I am the art of destruction, hedonistic revelry Ecstatic defamation, disregard, depravity Yeah I’m garish and mouthy and rude Tactless and childish and crude Yeah I am in poor taste I frolic in the fringes cause the margins are my center And the center is defunct but the edge is not to blame Yeah I am unashamed So go on and eat me out I taste it all the damn time There’s blood in my mouth I’m beating in from the outside I am the flame within the cheek without The hidden snarling teeth I am the monster Love me I’m disfigured misbehavior Don’t redeem me, I’m too needy Best believe I’ll slip your fingers Save your prayers ‘cause I’m downstairs Yeah I am the greatest sin I am pride And I'll win So go on and chew me out I taste it all the damn time There’s blood in my mouth I’m beating out from the inside I am the eyes within, the teeth without, the sneer you cannot see I am a monster And I’m free

Is this the world you call your own? Born into nothing then die alone? Tearing yourself down to the bone Every Day Is this the truth that you can’t face? You lay down the routes you’ll never take And spurn the gifts that you create Every day, every goddamn day And it goes on and on and on Yeah I’ve tried to let it be But the shame still follows me I never learned what I already know Sometimes you have to lay down your load You deserve Grace Is this the world you’re living in? Can you recall no greater sin? Digging more holes beneath your skin Every day, every goddamn day And it goes on and on and on Yeah I try to let it be But the shame still follows me ‘Cause I can’t hear what I already know: Sometimes you have to lay down your load; You have earned Grace (Oh lay yourself down now) ‘Cause I’ve done all anyone could ever ask for (Oh lay yourself down now) ‘Cause in the end we all deserve the same (Oh lay yourself down now) ‘Cause I tried and that’s all I could ever ask for (Oh lay yourself down now, close your eyes) Is this the world you call your own? Every day every goddamn day And it goes on and on and on Yeah, I gotta let it be ‘Cause the shame doesn’t own me I gotta feel what I already know (take a breath) Sometimes you have to lay down your load (‘Cause your shame has no place in your bed) You have earned grace (Take a breath) (There’s no space for self-hate or regret) (Take a breath) (There’s no shame) It’s time for you to lay down your load And show yourself the love that you are owed You have earned Grace

I am rage I am suffering Through endless nights and endless days My tired bones they ache with sadness of ages I am rage I'm depravity Respectability unmade My deformations break the bounds of your pages 'Cause I am rage and I cannot be contained So go ahead and walk all over me I'll be the nail stuck in your shoe 'Cause if our bodies were made to be broken I'll break mine over you I'll suck you dry Your hate inside 'Cause this is the death of niceties 'Cause I am rage and I cannot be contained Yeah I am rage and I am coming to fuck you up I am rage and I cannot be contained I am rage I'm the pain you fear The bed you lie in, debts repaid The huddled masses breaking out of their cages 'Cause I am rage I am rage and I cannot be contained I'm the dirt that's stuck underneath your heel The venom spit after unheeded appeals I am rage and I cannot be contained Yeah I am rage and I am ready to burn it all