1. |
Cautious Hope
02:50
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Another plaintive melody
To help the days seem less lonely
Each heartache demands their swansong
To be sung before I can move on
I'll take the rain from yesterday
'Cause hope can come in quiet ways
For after the tears have all gone
I'll turn inside out to meet the sun
It's a cautious hope
That nothing is set in stone
Another tuneful remedy
When the world's ills weigh down on me
And if my song can't bring me clear
Then it could at least abate the fear
And keep cautious hope
That maybe in time all things grow
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2. |
It's A Lovely Day
05:04
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Wake up in the morning and the sun is shining bright
Open up the curtains and take a look outside
The birds are singing and it’s nothing but blue sky
Good morning, darling, it’s a lovely day to-
So put on your brave face and walk on through that door
Ignore the feeling you’re not human anymore
Push through the crowds and plaster on a smile
Just never let on that you’re screaming all the while
‘Cause nothing feels alright
And there’s no end in sight oh-whoa-oh
‘Cause I don’t want to be awake anymore
I don’t wanna know what’s to come
Or have to keep putting up a fight
I wanna feel safe in the dark
I don’t wanna have to hear the sun
Keep singing “good morning, love. It’s a lovely day to die”
It feels like you're slipping in a stream of someone else
So keep ringing your fingers and talking to yourself
Chase the sensations if you can’t find peace of mind
Just keep it hidden so everything seems fine
But nothing feels alright
And there’s no end in sight oh-whoa-oh
‘Cause I don’t want to be awake anymore
I don’t wanna know what’s to come
Or have to keep putting up a fight
I wanna feel safe in the dark
I don’t wanna have to hear the sun
Keep singing “good morning, love. It’s a lovely day to—”
Shove it aside and move on, just tuck the harder feelings away
And try your best not to dissociate
Or pull up the covers and waste the day away in bed
With this screaming, this screaming, inside your head
‘Cause I don’t want to be awake anymore
I don’t wanna know what’s to come
Or have to keep putting up a fight
I wanna feel safe in the dark
I don’t wanna have to hear the sun
Keep singing “good morning, love. It’s a lovely day to die”
‘Cause I don’t want to be awake anymore
I don’t wanna know what’s to come
Or have to keep putting up a fight
I wanna feel safe in the dark
I don’t wanna have to hear the sun
Keep singing “good morning, love. It’s a lovely day to die”
Wake up in the morning and the sun is shining bright
(it's a lovely day to die)
Open up the curtains and take a look outside
(it's a lovely day to die)
The birds are singing and the sun is shining bright
(it's a lovely day to die)
Good morning darling it's a lovely day
(it’s a lovely day to die)
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3. |
Everybody Hurts
03:56
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Here we are by ourselves
Wasting days away
No one else is there to help
So this is how we'll stay
'Cause everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
When everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
We pass the time on our own
In silent company
But there's no rope to throw
And we can't do a thing
'Cause everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
When everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
'Cause everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
When everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
We'll try our best to do our part
In holding up a broken heart
But we're both falling apart
Here we are and here we'll stay
Trapped inside this verse
Nothing left to say
For fear we'll make things worse
'Cause everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
When everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
Yeah everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
When everybody hurts, everybody hurts, everybody hurts
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4. |
It Still Hurts
03:27
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So that’s how it starts
With a broken heart
It was always the same
And I just played my part
In the blink of an eye
The years go by
You’d think now that things have changed
The scars would fade in time
But it still hurts all the things you said
And you can wrap them up in pretty bows and tell me that’s not it
But I know exactly what you meant
And it still burns inside my sleepless mind every single night
Yeah you’ll never know
The seeds you’ve sewn
And nothing can hide
The weeds you’ve left inside but I’ve grown
The tables could turn
And you could take back your words
But no matter how far I get
I just can’t accept that you’ll never fucking learn
So it still hurts all the things you said
And you can wrap them up in pretty bows and tell me that’s not it
But I know exactly what you meant
And it still burns inside my sleepless mind every single night
So it still hurts all the things you said
And you can wrap them up in pretty bows and tell me that’s not it
But I know exactly what you meant
And it still burns inside my sleepless mind every single night
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5. |
The Thing
04:27
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The morning of the thing’s conception
I was unwittingly beguiled
When irrefutable compulsion
Befell an unsuspecting child
Teeming with unrelenting power
I heard the shadow beckon sweet
Haunting my every waking hour
And thus the darkness spoke to me
Come stand under the water, child, and turn the temp up high
You best not run away now let the pain in open wide
Just let the boiling water scar your throat and melt your eyes
'Cause there’s nothing like a mother’s love to make you wanna die
Years later, eyes sore and heart pounding
The voice returned to me one day
Just like a siren song resounding
To lead a broken heart astray
That voice kept calling from the darkness
Down all those cold abandoned streets
Whispering comfort to the heartless
With promises of sweet release
Come drift a little closer, love and let’s go for a ride
Step in a little further and you surely won’t survive
Just let yourself surrender and give me a chance to drive
'Cause there's nothing like a lover’s scorn to make you wanna die
You’ll sing my song everyday (2x)
And pray that no one hears a word of everything you say (4x)
Yeah, you know they call me the thing
Come stand under the water, child, and turn the temp up high
You best not run away now let the pain in open wide
Just let the boiling water scar your throat and melt your eyes
'Cause there’s nothing like a mother’s love to make you wanna die
Come drift a little closer, love and let’s go for a ride
Step in a little further and you surely won’t survive
Just let yourself surrender and give me a chance to drive
'Cause there's nothing like a lover’s scorn to make you wanna die
Come on and steal away with me and make your final climb
We’ll find some place secluded far away from prying eyes
Just give into your urges and don’t think about the height
'Cause there’s nothing like another day to make you wanna die
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6. |
Can You See Me?
04:02
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Can you hear me?
'Cause I'm trying to get this off my chest
And I want to speak without worrying what you'll think of me next
Can you see me?
'Cause I want to show you where I've been
But it seems I lose my dignity every time I let you in
I don't want to be
Another sob story
And I don't want your sympathy
I just want you to see me
For who I am and what I've been through
I want to say I'm not ok
Without having to worry if I've said too much
So tell me
Can you see me?
Do you know how I got this far?
Every way I fucked this body up never left an outward scar
I don't want to see it
The pity in your eyes
I just want someone who will hold my hand
And read right through my lies
But I don't want to be
Another sob story
Don't you know
That I don't want your sympathy
I just want you to see me
For who I am and what I've been through
I want to say I'm not ok
Without having to worry if I've said too much
So tell me
What do you see?
Can you hear me?
Or are you thinking what you should say next?
Every comfort that you offer up sticks something back onto my chest
I don't want to hear it
All the things you think I need
When guilty looks and sad eyes is all that you could offer me
When I don't want to be
Another sob story
No no
And I don't want your sympathy
I just want you to see me
For who I am and what I've been through
I want to say I'm not ok
Without having to worry if I've said too much
So tell me
Can you see me?
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7. |
A Reason To Live
04:36
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It's getting harder don't you feel it
To find a reason to exist
The days seem longer and it's growing cold
And all the usual things are growing old
It's getting harder to distract yourself
'Cause you keep hearing that sound that you know so well:
"The world is ending better run like hell"
I don't want another day that takes all I've got to give
I want a reason to live
No don't you bother making future plans
It's been decided and out of your hands
Just bite the bullet and forget the cost
'Cause it's so easy to get lost
There's only sympathy when you need help
It's the only comfort anyone can sell:
"We're right there with you but we wish you well"
I don't want another day that takes all I've got to give
I want a reason to live
The world is ending better run like hell (4x)
You hear that sound that you know so well
It's the fears inside you that you just can't quell
'Cause the world is ending better run like hell
I don't want another day that takes all I've got to give
I want a reason to live
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8. |
Outworlder
04:31
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Neil and Buzz landed in the year '69
The first to touch down beyond human ken
Can you imagine how spectacularly lonely it must have been?
And Buzz he chimed in when Houston asked them
"Hey what's it like on the moon?"
"Well Houston I think it's spectacularly lonely knowing no one else can see this too"
Well ten more went and they saw and they left
And they came back down onto firm land
And how did they feel?
They felt spectacularly lonely knowing no one else could understand
Now here I lie on my personal moon
Sending satellites drifting from my divergent heart
But the message is written in an alien tongue
And we're hundreds and thousands of miles apart
And I know what it feels like laying down on the moon
And gazing up at the Earth standing skyward at your feet
And everything I say won't make sense to you
And it feels spectacularly lonely
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9. |
Wasteland
03:49
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Give me
Another chance to go again
Send me
I’ll never question why
Bring me
A piece to please my mind again
Give me
A California sky
But I wonder how long it will take
For the sands of time to wash away my face
On that morning will you wake and wonder where your daughter’s gone?
She’s flying away from home
On the wings of a desert storm
Just a bastard child
Out of the wasteland
Give me
A reason to believe again
Maybe
We’ll find another way
Send me
The sign that slipped my mind again
Give me
A reason I should stay
But how many days have gone by
While you have lived inside this lie?
Will this morning be the day you just give in and let me die?
No you don’t know my name
You know a wasteland
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10. |
Moving On
05:02
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I've been waiting here for days
Screaming colors through the static gray
Silence fleeting comes in waves
Of quiet erosion wasting me away
This deep azure blue
Flows down every avenue
Sweet monochrome slew
Paints me in cerulean hues
Countless visions pass me by
Like evening shadows through the August sky
Gleaning meaning every night
Then disappearing in the shade’s respite
And dark has its time
Leads the willing through the undertide
Fluid fractured light
Breeds mosaic sight
But I can’t help but feel this way
Chained by the words you say
But if you
Would help me pull through
Then I’m moving on
Motions pass and habits fade
Like castles falling to the coming wave
I’ll tie my heartache to these staves
And hope the currents wash the stains away
And I can’t help but feel this way
Chained by the words you simply won’t say
But if you
Would only help me pull through
Then I’m moving on
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11. |
Ray der Bankert Oakland, California
Singer-songwriter based in Oakland, CA. Writing sad songs in major and weird, self-indulgent experimental stuff on occasion. Slowly but surely improving my production value.
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