I woke up in a city of shit and needed to get out of it So I caught the next flight to the bay I really tried to make it work but I can only walk in circles For so long until I need to get away But you're still stuck in Stockholm, baby I guess you won't be joining me upon a distant shore 'Cause every time she hurt you only made you love her more No you can't understand it 'cause you're still stuck inside So If I can't bear to be there, please don't ask me why There's many a thing I know I'd like to tell you And many a thing I wish you'd understand But I left u in Stockholm, baby Yeah I left u in Stockholm, baby No you don't know what happened on that morning in May And he can just keep telling himself that I'll be back one day He'll say he's just confused but won't face the truth buried inside And just because he can't see the rain That doesn't mean that the weather's fine Until he can see the world outside those bank vault walls My answer will remain the same when he calls: "Why don't you come on back to Stockholm, baby 'Cause we really miss you So come on back to Stockholm, baby Because it's been too long" I won't come back to Stockholm, baby No I won't come back to Stockholm, baby 'Cause I'm too far gone

Something isn't right here I don't feel at ease Maybe something's broken That I just couldn't see And I have tried for ages To find the place I fit But I can't seem to settle Perhaps this isn't it Something isn't right here Something feels unsure Familiar and foreboding Is that what I'm here for? Wouldn't it be lovely Going somewhere new Wouldn't it be lovely You've got nothing to hold on to And I have yearned for ages To lay my weary head down But I can't seem to settle I can't find solid ground Something isn't right here I don't feel at ease Something has been broken That I just couldn't see Shouldn't it be lovely Going somewhere new It's so fucking lovely When all you've got is you Something isn't right here I don't feel at ease Something has been broken It broke inside of me Something isn't right here The feeling starts to creep I do not belong here There's nothing left for me And I can't sleep

Congrats, you were the first to hurt me So you’re the first I’ll leave behind No, I cant say that you deserved me Or that I got much from our time Now you wonder if I miss you ‘Cause we haven’t spoken for these years Well, truth be told I can’t forget you But you wont see me shedding tears Stop telling me you need me 'Cause you don’t know the shit I've been through Stop telling me you miss me The only one to blame is you I’m walking out, not backing down Don’t wait for me to come home You won’t see me round here I’m not turning back I’m through with this, I’m through with you I won’t take any more You lost the best thing you had I’m done You wonder what you did to earn this 'Cause it was "just a little tiff" You say that I’m a selfish child ‘Cause I’m not getting over it So silence all your pleads and urgings Yeah, you’ll be waiting there for days I’ve no intention of returning 'Cause you’re stuck in your selfish ways Stop telling me you need me 'Cause you don’t know the shit I've been through Stop telling me you miss me The only one to blame is you I’m walking out, not backing down Don’t wait for me to come home You won’t see me round here I’m not turning back I’m through with this, I’m through with you I won’t take any more You lost the best thing you had Yeah we could have made it through If you didn’t let your narcissism rule you But it was too much to ask And so you fucked up all the time that we had left That’s too bad I’m walking out, not backing down Don’t wait for me to come home You won’t see me round here I’m not turning back I’m through with this, I’m through with you I won’t take any more It’s been a long time coming I’m walking out, not backing down Don’t wait for me to come home You won’t see me round here I’m not turning back I’m through with this, I’m through with you I won’t take any more I’m not coming back I’m done

Drop all social consciousness and feed into your hand Drop all social consciousness and drain me while you can You say you want me enabled But you make it clear That it won't happen at your expense You tell me you care But you leave me hanging When I need you the most, what's your defense? For making me sell out all my time For a handful of peanuts and a dime 'Cause I'm not even worth your shiniest pennies Go on and drain me while you can I'm caught in the cross hairs Of your hoarding complex I shouldn't have to serve you to justify my existence Giving me access To the means of survival Is not radical, it's common fucking sense But you dropped all social consciousness to feed into your hand And making me sell out all my time For a handful of peanuts and a dime 'Cause I'm not even worth your shiniest pennies Go on and waste away my life Drop all social consciousness and feed into your hand Drop all social consciousness and feed your fucking head Drop all social consciousness and starve me while you can Drop all social consciousness and drain me 'til I'm dead 'Cause I'm not even worth your sympathy No I'm not even worth a damn 'Cause I'm not even worth your shiniest pennies Go on and drain me while you can (waste away my life)

(Send me a sign; tell me can you see the light from my satellite) You say that we can go years without speaking and it’ll be the same But when it isn’t you act so surprised Well, I know the geography is challenging but even so It’s not my fault Massachusetts makes me want to die Remember that time at Camp Aoun when I tried to leave And when you stopped me I broke down and cried Well this is why: every time I hear you laughing it always seems That I’m just stuck on the outside So sometimes I wonder if you forget that I exist Yeah, there’s a reason I keep writing songs about this You were my family but now you’re leaving me behind for pastures green And now it’s plain to see that I don’t mean as much to you as you mean to me And if we could go back to the early years we’d see this was always happening But I don’t want to be the third to go No, this is nothing new; I’ve been feeling this way since high school When Erica told me I’d disappear off of the Earth And I tried and I tried to make this work, but nearly a decade has gone by And it still feels one-sided so I guess I overestimated what I was worth “Well why didn’t you say so? If you told us, we would have listened.” I hear you cry from the opposite shore And I reply, this has happened twice before and both of those times You made it clear that it was their problem not yours So forgive me if I think you forgot I exist Yeah, there’s a reason I keep writing songs about this You were my family but now you’re leaving me behind for pastures green And now it’s plain to see that I don’t mean as much to you as you mean to me And now I have to ask was this always just a friendship of convenience And am I going to be the third to go? You say you care but why am I the only one to reach out, reach out? You say we’re drifting but we could fix it if you’d only reach out, reach out You say you love me but I won’t believe it ‘till you reach out, reach out You say we’re drifting, but who is the one who let that happen? And if you never see any more of me I don’t feel like you’d care Did our friendship die as soon as it took time or was there never anything there? You are my family but I don’t mean as much to you as you mean to me I wish we could still be But you don’t put effort in me So I guess that makes me the third to go

Oh, Cassandra You're a little too complex for me You make me plea insanity To be by your side Oh, Cassandra Why does it gotta be like this You make me pay for every kiss I get 'Cause Cassandra's complex You light me up like gasoline And then blow it out So no one else will see All the things That you do to me Oh Cassandra I'd think you're a nightmare If you weren't such a dream I haven't figured out how to live without you I think it would be better but I still don't know what I'd do Oh, Cassandra You're a little too complex for me You make me plea insanity To be by your side Oh, Cassandra Why does it gotta be like this You make me pay for every kiss I get 'Cause Cassandra's complex You make me question what I believe Then you throw it out All the facts you see And all of my things That you don't need Oh Cassandra I don't think I matter 'Cause you're denying all my feelings I still don't know how to get you to believe me And even if I could I couldn't make you care Oh, Cassandra You're a little too complex for me You make me plea insanity To be by your side Oh, Cassandra Why does it gotta be like this You make me pay for every kiss I get 'Cause Cassandra's complex

I think about the days When I used to let it slide I think about the way I'll go to sleep tonight And think about the times I could have set you straight Now it's just a waste of breath And it's me I hate Just give me something Give me a reason These songs are for nobody Full of the things I'd love to say To the people who'll never listen anyway You left me nothing So I'm leaving 'Cause there's no hope

Shadows streaming low In the early dying light Reminds me of a brisk New England fall Now everyone I know Is safe at home tonight Where every face is one they can recall Don't leave me behind Frozen crystal stars Drift slowly from the sky And make me miss that place that I once knew I wanna come out from the cold To a place that’s warm and bright But when I see your smiling face I realize to my dismay I’m doomed to stand out here all on my own and have it rubbed into my face how you Are happy Without me So leave me behind But look at all these stars, they’re falling from the sky They jumped too soon 'cause they thought that maybe they could fly And if they drift away from anyplace they know Even if they’re all alone They’re never far from home (Don't leave me behind)

I’ll never bring a child into this world Just to fuck them up like you did No I won’t pass down your legacy To another unsuspecting victim You let your pain spill over And flow into the cups of the people at your side And had them slay your demons for you So you could run and hide Well it doesn’t matter what you do to me now 'Cause I’m fucked up either way, I can’t be further broken down You can hurt me all you want to You can give me all your shit 'Cause I'm a black hole, a black hole baby I’ll just absorb it So give me all your shame and hurt Yeah, lay it on me It wont matter when it's all said and done 'Cause it'll die with me I’d rather be a martyr Than let anyone else get hurt by you No I don’t mind stepping in harm’s way ‘Cause it’s the place that I’m used to And I won’t give the burden you left me to someone else to carry I’ll be the last one Because rocks form under pressure And the harder you push me the stronger I become Now it gives me comfort to think about How no one else will bear your name when I’m six feet underground You can hurt me all you want to You can give me all your shit 'Cause I'm a black hole, a black hole baby I’ll just absorb it So give me all your shame and hurt Yeah, lay it on me It wont matter when it's all said and done 'Cause it'll die with me (I am the product) of four generations of abuse (The first strong enough) to break the patterns of misuse (So know when you scream) at me you scream into the void (Keep wasting your breath) on someone who won't play into your ploy (I won’t let anyone else) hear your poisonous lies (And I will end this) cursed bloodline You can hurt me all you want to You can give me all your shit 'Cause I'm a black hole, a black hole baby I’ll just absorb it So give me all your shame and hurt Yeah, lay it on me It wont matter when it's all said and done 'Cause it'll die with me So go on do your fucking worst Yeah, lay it on me But know in the end you will not have won 'Cause your hate will die with me Yeah, it'll die with me